Repentance

ဒီေန႔ေတာ့ မရွည္ေတာ့ပါဘူးဗ်ာ…တကယ္ပါ…ကဗ်ာေလးတစ္ပုဒ္ပဲ တင္လိုက္တယ္… ေခါင္းစဥ္ေတာ့မရွိဘူး၊ ကၽြန္ေတာ္ကေတာ့ Repentance   လို႔ပဲေပးထားတယ္… အစကေတာ့ ဘာသာျပန္လိုက္မလ႔ိုပဲ… ဒါေပမယ့္ ႏွေျမာတာနဲ႔ ဒီအတိုင္းပဲ ကူးထည့္လိုက္တယ္…ဒါပဲေကာင္းပါတယ္…မဟုတ္ဘူးလား… 

I should have had the courage to stand my ground

To be what I wanted to be not what you expected me to be

If I could have, I would have been

A success in my own eyes

Instead of a failure in yours.

I should have rejected your standards for my life

And lived only by my own

If I could have, I would have been

Happy and strong

Instead of miserable and weak.

I should have done what I thought was right

Not what you said was right

If I could have, I would have

Lived a life that had meaning  for me

Instead of  a life filled with empty regrets.

I should have lived my life for myself

Not for you, others ,or  society

If I could have, I would have

Enjoyed living and loving

Instead of feeling so alone and unfulfilled

But in the twilight of life

Should haves

Could haves

And would haves

Do no good because they change nothing

And negate the joys I have experienced…,

the love I have shared,

and the beauty I have seen.

None of which I am willing to so dishonor.

Bobbi Duffy

 

P.S 

Thanks Christina for the poem, teacher who love torturing students.  :P